school makes me selfish

i used to love the thought of fall fast approaching for more than just the jean-appropriate weather, changing colors, and fantasy football.  i used to look forward to school starting. school was my social out-let, my time to click with new people and catch up with others.  it gave me something to look forward to because when i was in school i was always busy.  there was always something to do and be done. now that the school season is here yet again, im almost entering a depressed state of mind. my best friend flo will be pre-occupied with school this year and the on and off again boy will be back in school. i feel like school starting is going to kill what little social life i had. i wish i had one more month of summer to have fun and hang out with certain people before they will have even less time for me :(

i know its selfish but i wish the school season would never start up again. i think its about time i finally consider "really" putting myself out there and hanging out with someone of the male population. i dont think it would be all that horrible to spend time with another person with the cozy, cold season only a couple months away.  im not going to lie...i would love to have someone special to spend my nights with. not even a bf....just someone special. my friends joke about how i say im never gonna get married therefore i will probably be the first one engaged and married and that it will happen in a year.  i 98% doubt that.  the 2% that i dont is if for some reason andy, my ex boyfriend, wanted to try again...then maybe just maybe we would be a successful duo this time around and decide to just take the leap into serious commitment. but considering he is dating someone else at the moment, i dont think andy and i will ever have that opportunity again. 

so again to conclude....can we please push school off for another month or two so i can still feel like i have a partial social life??? ugh.


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