love nonsense

i had a bf
we broke up
actually i broke up with him
we were too much too friends
not enough bf-gf
i have a work crush
i told him
he said he had a crush on me too
we flirt
i flirt with everyone
but the work crush and i flirt
i had co-workers over for game night
work crush came too
we flirted but not as much as at work
fast forward
im going out with my roomie to have fun
work crush calls
he meets us, brings a friend
i had one more drink than i usually do
i wasnt my typical me
im pretty sure work crush likes another girl
but is too much of a nice guy to just tell me
but yet he drops such subtle, stupid mixed signals
did i mention he brought a friend with
my roomie and his friend knew each other...small world
we all laugh and have a good time
work crush's friend completely has a crush on me
i text work crush..thanks for friday
i get a crappy, fairly meaningless response
i get frustrated and confused
ex bf messages me from florida..hes confused, mad
i dont know what to tell him
i just want everyone to be honest
i just want my life to be normal
i just want to be me...really just me

stupid love nonsense is what this all is
off to bed i go...to hopefully dream nothing at all

my likes

things in life that i like:

-chocolate kisses...those little candies wrapped in tinfoil are just so yummy
-sleeping with way too many pillows
-wearing a big, baggy sweatshirt with a pair of jeans
-taking pictures of people
-my co-workers! they make work interesting
-Cabo, my little four-legged furry prince charming
-sitting on my porch with flo soaking up the sun
-diet mt. dew when really stressed
-a good suspense thriller that keeps me guessing
-floating on the river at my dads house
-when a boy makes the first move and asks me to lunch/movie (hasnt ever happened before...just like the idea)
-family video game nights--fun fun
-chap stick
-big sexy trucks
-flirting
-rocky rococos pizza
-the color green
-my blanket (yes i have a blanket)
-wearing flipflops year round
-toblerone chocolate (started with chocolate...might as well end with chocolate)

"breakeven"

"Breakeven" by the script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no

What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no

flo anne!

HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY TO FLORENCE ANNE!!!!!

I LOVE YOU BEST FRIEND!!!


I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!!!!!!!

complicated

I'm so scared that the way that I feel,
Is written all over my face.
When you walk into the room,
I wanna find a hiding place.
We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do.
But now, a smile and a touch of your hand,
Just makes me come unglued.
Such a contridiction, do I lie or tell the truth.
Is it fact or fiction,
Oh the way I feel for you.

So complicated, I'm so frustrated.
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it? Should I tell you how I feel?
Oh, I want you to know.
But then again, I don't. It's so complicated.

Oh..just when I think I'm under control.
I think I finally got a grip.
Another friend tells me that,
My name is always on your lips.
They say I'm more than just a friend,
they say I must be blind.
Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me
from the corner of your eye.
Oh, It's so confusing. I wish you'd just confess.
But think of what I'd be losing,
if your answer wasn't yes.

So complicated I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it, should I tell you how I feel.
Oh I want you to know, but then again I don't, It's so complicated.

Oh, I hate it. 'Cuz I've waited.
So long for someone like you
Oh, what do I do.
Oh should I say it.
Should I tell you how I feel.
I want you to know,but then again I don't.
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated.
Ohh..


"Complicated"
by:
Carolyn Dawn Johnson

revelation

my life is a movie and i hate not knowing the ending.