mexico, yeah baby!

it's official i am going to mexico march 9-16th! woots woots

in a funk

currently i'm:

bored, disappointed, slightly depressed, doubtful, confused, in strong strong like with someone, underwhelmed, lonely, sad, a hermit, hopeless, pathetic, stupid, and the list goes on.


im in a funk.

and i am having doubts that my life is headed in a direction i'd like it to. i am having doubts that i will have a fun and special birthday. my xmas sucked...my post xmas sucked...i dont have a boyfriend even though there is someone i am head over heels with, he doesnt deserve me and i am constantly left disappointed by him.



i just want to re live my summer over and over again...that was fun! please can we just rewind a little?

death is knocking on my door...or so it feels like

im really sick right now. it sucks. went to urgent care and they said that my labs were all normal...nothing they could do for me. i havent eaten in 24 hrs and my body is starving but nothing sounds good. i am supposed to be staying hydrated but i cant bare to drink my gatorade or water....its all just gross right now. i feel weak and tired, but all ive been doing is laying on the couch and sleeping. im bored but have no energy. i wish i had my mom here or i had a bf to take care of me and play with my hair. that always relaxes me. i feel so out of it. i hate my life so much right now. and on top of it i have to find a way to make up 7 hours of work by the end of the week. FML.


the end.

new years kiss update

i did not kiss a rando like i joked about, nor did i kiss anyone else!

i did however start my year off with honesty. i finally owned up and told sam to his face i like him.

the 2011 honesty kick will continue !!  however i will not be talking via phone to anyone any day soon considering im somehow now sick...booooooo. this blows.