i realize now what i have lost...what i chose to give up....i miss him....i miss everything about him. the good and the not soo good.. i miss it all and like an idiot i walked away because of fear and because i was naive to my feelings and what didnt know i had. i had the world. i had a life. i had everything most people dream of and i left it because of stupid petty reasons and my own insecuries and curiosities. i can 100% today admit i regret my decision. i try to live life not regretting anything. but this i regret. this, that i gave up was more than just a silly title of what was....i gave up a second family, a second set of friends, my future husband, my future children, something stable and that always would be there in support of me no matter what. i gave up everything for nothing and the worst part is...is that i realized it too late. what is done cant be undone and it is killing me and breaking my heart. i hate seeing my family w/o him by my side....for i feel is still so much a part of who i am and who i will continue to be. i miss him. i love him. i will always love him. i love you andy!