Pray for you

Flo had CMT on this morning and a song she had told me about a few months ago came on. It had different meaning for me then and was meant for someone else...now it is the way I feel for a particular meanie. It's entertaining. enjoy!

"Pray For You"
by Jaron & The Long Road to Love

I haven't been to church since I don't remember when
Things were going great til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do
He said you can't go hatin' others who have done wrong to you
Sometimes we get angry but we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do his job, you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin' down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flyin' high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, honey, I pray for you

I'm really glad I found my way to church
Cause I'm already feelin' better and I thank God for the words
Yeah, I'm gonna take the high road and do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messin' up, and I'll keep prayin' for you

I pray your tire goes out at 110
I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend
And wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin' down a hill
I pray a flower pot falls from a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray you're flyin' high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far
In your house or in your car
Wherever you are, honey, I pray for you
I pray for you

here is gone

my new thing...if and when i find a song that fits my current mood/day i plan to post all the lyrics for you all to read and for me to come back to and remember at a later time.

so this was my song of choice for yesterday and the lyrics to go with it. it's a good song and some of the lyrics are how are feel about someone so they just fit.


"Here Is Gone"
by the Goo Goo Dolls


You and I got something
But it's all and then it's nothing to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes through your intentions for me, yeah

And we wake up in the breakdown
With the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I dont need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
And I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

throw rocks

some boys are cute, others are dumb. throw rocks at the dumb ones!

bad vs good

i cant stop thinking about the bad guy....he is so intriguingly attractive to me. and the more he is cold and dumb, the more curious i get. our make-outs were so passionate and fun...daring. but he is stupid and doesnt want to hang out, probably because he wanted gold and came up with bronze. so how do i get over the bad guy or get his attention back??? or should i even care? probably not.

then there is the good guy. he is super cute and fun and nice. but i get the friendship vibe from him...but was told from a male friend that the good guy has to at least like me a little bit to go out to dinner/movie/mini golf with me. but i feel i need a little sign first before i can either a) tell him i like him or b) be bold and make a small move. how do i get my sign to differentiate between friend-like or like-like????


wait wait wait... or push push push for answers...what to do what to do???


and the war between good vs. bad continues on

reception fun

it was my cousin chads and my new cousin maika's wedding reception last night and it was interesting! def. fun and a typical hamilton night of shenanigans. my dad got me drunk. my brother made my dad do two shots. my dad danced and sang like a crazy person but that is why i love my dad and also why i fear my own wedding reception at some point in the future. but at least it is never a dull moment at a hamilton function! we retired from the party at 10:30pm wow....go us ha ha ha ha what a bunch of tired, light-weights! :)

i love my family!

"remember me"

great movie! watch it!

happy birthday andrew

today is andys 23rd birthday and i am no longer on speaking terms with him for a while after our fight/phone call yesterday. ugh.


its just so stupid.

the new me

so my goal for this summer is to simply have fun!

i have changed my name of facebook just slightly...ditched the last name and added my middle name.

deleted 87 friends in a 24hr period.

read an amazing book called "why men love B****es"....and it is full of so much information. i loved it! i read it all in 2 days! seriously amazing.

i am thinking about dying my hair dark dark brown again to go with the new "me"

its more like an improved, summer courtney!

i have also been making nice with more people than i had had in my life before...and i love hanging out with people. so far the list includes lindsey, alyssa, chris h, trent, sam..but not so much anymore, forever florence (she is my girl), mark (because hes a new roomie so it kinda works), and tyler.

also have one road trip for the summer already planned...valleyfair here we come! so excited.


so what else can i improve? hmmm...the only thing missing is a boy for the summer...we'll work on that if i feel like it later.

a low moment

today...waking up seemed more difficult than other days. it was harder to find the energy and the drive to get up and want to start my day. my head is in la-la land and its definitely going to be a blah weekend. im lonely. i miss having my boyfriend. i miss having a partner in life, to hear all of my problems big and small, to hear all of my funny stories, to simply just sit with and do nothing at all together. i miss having someone to come home to or to wait for them to come home to me. i miss cuddling, kissing, sleeping next to someone, i miss having someone.


being alone is scary. it means that my story is blank right now, unwritten with no direction.



i want someone to kill time with. i want a friend. i want someone to sit with me, eat with me, laugh with me, watch movies with me, hug me, etc etc etc for the summer. i dont want to feel lonely everyday...somedays thats fine...just not everyday. i want a temp. "boy" friend...for the summer....ha ha



im a loser.

so as a pick me up...i'll watch Twilight New Moon

WOMP WOMP

one minor regret...

i wish i hadnt let sam make out with me...now it seems near impossible that we can be friends. he took it one level past friendship then was a jerk and blew me off...now its probably gonna be way to weird to try to just co-exist as decent friends. WOMP WOMP. intriguing personality but strange friendship-commitment-line crossing issues with that boy.

WOMP WOMP

coulda been a cool friend...but he had to blow it....its just too bad i didnt stop him way back when he first made a move. coulda saved us both a lot of time and confusion.

WOMP WOMP

oh well....shopping with linds and alyssa tomorrow should make things cheery!!!

cutest customer ever

-little boy (about 5) asks me...do you have ghostbusters

-i then proceed to show him where and he responds with "this is my favoritest movie ever"

-he asks my name and tells me his...Isaac.

-he then asks if i want to see him fly....he backs up a few feet, takes off running down the movie isle and jumps as high as he can...turns and asks.."did you see me flying?"

-we chat a little bit about his flying and how impressive it was, i tell him i better get back to work but if he has any questions for me he can ask me anytime

-he has a question..."do you know how much i love girls?"

- so cute...so i say no, how much? and his response was "this much (with his arms held wide open) times the sun)

-15 minutes go by and he comes up with his dad to rent the movies and he flies one more time for me. tells me i should try sometime but not if my back hurts because that can be dangerous.

-i hand him his movies and say goodbye isaac...and he says "I LOVE YOU!"


-omg i melted....so flippen cute!!!!