"he's a sucky person"

To steal a line from Lauren Conrad of the Hills on MTV. "He's a sucky person."

This is exactly how I feel about Sam! Sam is a sucky person. I entered a mild FWB situation with him and he treated me like crap throughout. And then finally when he didn't get what he wanted aka just the benefits...and I gave him a taste of his own medicine meaning I was sarcastic and rude to him...he got mad. I called it off to end it, and his go-to reaction is to delete and block me on facebook...good for you sam danforth. good for you. you are mature. you are an adult. good job. you threw away the one girl that was only looking for fun and no serious strings attached other than a little respect and friendship for your right hand. again good job. hope you and your right hand are happy together because you will be alone for a long, long time. why? it's simple...because you, sam, are a "sucky person." you are delusional and have a messed up idea of what friends vs. bf-gf means. Lucky for you...you get no benefits, I'm pretty sure everyone at menards hates you, and I am stealing your friends away one by one.


Hope your happy. and good bye sammy!!!

confused

i feel a little confused on the inside right now. i am trying to not let myself feel, but human nature is undeniable and unavoidable. so here i am trying to pretend....but i am lying to myself a little each time. i want something real, i want to feel more...but i know there is nothing more to be had. so should i continue with where i am and be dissatisfied and yet satisfied both at the same time or should i stop myself now before attachment sets in. hmmm. things to consider. but i cannot stop thinking about the possibilities. life is a silly thing.


i shall ponder about this for the next few hours while at work and write more soon about my thoughts.



and yes this was all in code...if you know me, you know this...if you dont...dont bother asking.

life update

-i am gonna be full time now at family video which means i am staying eau claire for one more year!!!!

-i am on the hunt for the perfect one bedroom apartment

-i've been FWB a couple of times with sam and oddly i like it...even through all the frustrating moments

-wendy (andys sister) is engaged...and it is driving me nuts! i cannot understand how everything was so perfect for me and now its just turned upside down and the battles i had with feeling accepted and appreciated by the once soon-to-be in-laws were so difficult for me and so easy for tim (wendys financé)

-andy and my brother taylor are coming to ec tonight to party it up on water street and it bugs me because a) i have to work all night long closing and b) i love my brother and think it would be awesome to see him...but im just not ready to see andy

-i have stupid tan lines from getting burnt earlier in the summer and i cant get rid of them

-i miss my baby cabo!

-happy 4th of july for me...i get to work 6-close friday, 5-close saturday, 4-close sunday, 12-7 monday, and close again on tuesday night....lucky me!

Better with you

song of the day:

"Better with you"
by Fives times august



So maybe I've got a lot to learn.
Or maybe I'm just hangin' on my words.
Maybe it's not a big concern.
But, if I raise my hand will I understand why I'm better with you?

So maybe there's not a lot to say
Or maybe i've grown doin' things my way (Yeah)
Or maybe things will be okay.
But if I get it together and do something clever, I'll make it better with you

So tell me, where did I go wrong before you?
Before you came along, well it seems like i was lost.
You showed me how to do things right, now I'm, so glad that now you're mine.
So let me say it all again.

So maybe there's not a lot to do.
or maybe I'm just makin myself confused.
Or maybe i've got nothin' to lose.
But if I get out of line, just tell me you're mine, and how I'm better with you.

So tell me, where did I go wrong before you?
Before you came along, well it seems like I was lost.
You showed me how to do things right, now I'm, so glad that now you're mine.

So use me, don't let me screw it up.
I believe you oh, I need your touch.
Just a little spice of you could never be too much
I believe you oh, I need you now
to make it better all somehow.
To make it better all somehow.

So tell me, where did I go wrong before you?
Before you came along, well it seems like I was lost.
You showed me how to do things right, now I'm, so glad that now you're mine.

So use me, don't let me screw it up.
I believe you, oh, I need your touch.
Just a little spice of you could never be too much.
I believe you oh, I need you now
to make it better all somehow.
To make it better all somehow.