tonight was a mistake...i was already messed up and confused from the few moments i had with him/seeing him, but then to enter an environment where i felt on the outside and was surrounded by unneeded and unrelated tension only seemed to elevate my horrible mood to new levels. im hormonal right now and on the verge of crying every other hour. tonight was a mistake. i should have avoided it like my gut told me but i was hoping for a low stress distraction. blah.