love nonsense

i had a bf
we broke up
actually i broke up with him
we were too much too friends
not enough bf-gf
i have a work crush
i told him
he said he had a crush on me too
we flirt
i flirt with everyone
but the work crush and i flirt
i had co-workers over for game night
work crush came too
we flirted but not as much as at work
fast forward
im going out with my roomie to have fun
work crush calls
he meets us, brings a friend
i had one more drink than i usually do
i wasnt my typical me
im pretty sure work crush likes another girl
but is too much of a nice guy to just tell me
but yet he drops such subtle, stupid mixed signals
did i mention he brought a friend with
my roomie and his friend knew each other...small world
we all laugh and have a good time
work crush's friend completely has a crush on me
i text work crush..thanks for friday
i get a crappy, fairly meaningless response
i get frustrated and confused
ex bf messages me from florida..hes confused, mad
i dont know what to tell him
i just want everyone to be honest
i just want my life to be normal
i just want to be me...really just me

stupid love nonsense is what this all is
off to bed i go...to hopefully dream nothing at all