i think im dumb. no pause. rewind...replay..i know i am dumb.
i made it 3 full weeks w/o sort of contact and i stupidly cave and give in and text in an effort to be nice. why. why bother....oh idk maybe because of curiosity. perhaps because im still slightly attached....or maybe its all of that plus im just a nice person. but the most frustrating part is not the fact that i sent a text its that i didnt get even a rude reply back...i got nothing. nothing is the worst because it leaves you hanging by a thread and wondering. i would have rather gotten a response telling me i suck at life and i eff off....honestly that would have been better than nothing. being unacknowledged is the worst sort of treatment someone can do to you. its the cruelest form of being mean. and i set myself up for this all by trying to be nice. ugh.
oh well....live and learn, right? apparently i have a little more living to do and a lot more learning.
i just want my happily ever after and i want it now. or at least a glimmer of one would be nice.
all i know is that he better not come to dinner after ignoring the text, ha ha...i wont be friendly. (unless of course i have been texting a completely random person....which would be horribly amusing in and of itself)
this is all for now.
until tomorrow night....hopefully i will have a positive recap.
Why do you keep putting the "I was trying to be nice" spin on it. We both know that isn't the case. The moment you quit lying to yourself, is the moment you can truly start moving forward.
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